exciting times

Hey everyone

Thought I'd pop on an update for you all to let you know how things are going.

After my last post, as a family we settled back into the swing of going back to school and the house slave returning back to work full time. The house is so very quiet like you could actually hear a pin drop! Its a bag of mixed emotions on the one hand after the weekend I can not wait for that slamming of the door as they all leave and the blissful sigh that escapes me and ripples out into the silence but on the other it draws towards the middle of the week and the silence becomes a little to much and I can't wait for the weekend to have them all at home.

I have been back to the hospital to see the urologist who again assures me that my last scan was definitely clear apart from my kidneys were a little swollen so he referred me for a Mag 3 scan....ever heard of that? Nope me neither so I shit my pants when a letter arrived informing me it was in the nuclear department and that they woul…

self reflection

Hey guys,

It is that time of year again when our little ones all start their new school year and we lovingly pack them off with new uniform, new bags and coats, a wholesome pack lunch and a kiss and cuddle at the gates. We then turn around and you can see all the newbies, those with tears in their eyes as they send their babies off into the big world for the first time. And then there is the rest of us who have done this shit before and we have smiles of joy, relief in our faces and excitement in our blood that we can finally go home enjoy a cup of tea and that stashed pack of chocolate biccies you've been hiding in a secret place because you just don't want to bloody share.  I hear you!!!!

The start of the school year always brings a sense of new beginnings and a sudden burst of energy to try and better yourself. I have found myself doing quite a lot of self reflection these last couple of weeks and  I have come to the conclusion I am either A: totally insane, B: actually a h…

cock blocker

Hey everyone

I know, I know I haven't put finger to key for some time and you have all missed my witty charm and sarcastic verse.

To be honest I've had times when I have felt on top of the world and then others when I could really do with having my head surgically removed from my arse. Cancer can really be the cockblocker of life. For those who may not know what a cock block is...
You know when you and the other half have had a bit to drink and you begin to feel a little amorous, the lighting is perfect (dark so you cant see the flabby bits), the mood is sensual (due to the amount of alcohol you have consumed), the house is perfectly quiet (the kids were in bed by 7 and are soundly asleep) so you jump on each other like a pair of rampant teenagers ignoring the fact your hips are making cracking noises, you have cramp in one leg and you cant remember being this out of breath when you were younger...and then all of a sudden you here...."mummy have you hurt your leg?" &…

ups and downs

Hey everyone,

How are we all doing?

So I have just completed week 2 of radiotherapy and its going well. I was so nervous on the first day going through the doors into the radiotherapy reception. We sat waiting for what felt like an eternity, tentatively waiting to hear my name called. The waiting area is lovely and relaxed with views over some pretty gardens and I almost balled my eyes out when a robin flew into the garden and sat in the tree. The robin means a lot to me. After my grandad passed away a couple of years ago I saw one everyday in our garden at home and I just knew it was him sending me a message: "hello my flower" as he used to call me or " don't think you can get away with anything cos I am still bloody watching you" he always loved my cheeky ways. But I had not seen one for a couple of weeks until that morning sat in the waiting room and I just knew it was him letting me know he was there which made me feel a little better.

Whilst waiting an eld…

getting nervous!!!!!!

Hey everyone,

How are we all?

I am doing well, in fact I am doing very well and am feeling really good. My body is continuing to heal well and the hole in my stomach has shrunk loads. In fact it has shrunk that much that the plastic surgeon has agreed that I no longer need my hoover dressing and can now have a normal dressing on it (essentially a fucking huge plaster but hey its got no tubes coming out of it!). I am so impressed with how my body has coped with everything it has been through. In fact I think its pretty amazing, I actually feel pretty fucking there nothing my body can't take. Everything that has ever been thrown at my body and trust me it has been through hell but yet every single time it fights back and rises out of the ashes like a god damn goddess! I actually firmly believe I should have a crown because I am that good!.

Besides me blowing my own fanfare I have been busy trying to make sure everything is ready for me starting radiotherapy on Monday…

It's been a while

Hey hey everyone....long time no updates!

It's been a rough few months and I have the battle scars to prove it.

As you were all aware I went in for my big surgery on the 18th of Feb and it went as well as expected. 8 and a bit hours under the knife, a few days in intensive care and I was back on a normal ward to keep on recovering. The staff were all fab, I met some remarkable people who I will never forget and I can't praise them enough I know how difficult I can be especially when I'm stuck in a place I don't want to be and I can't do much for myself....stubborn as hell!!!

The drugs were amazing I was hardly in any pain apart from when being moved. I was off my tits!! In all honesty I am not sure what people get out of doing hardcore drugs and sniffing shit, the stuff is awful it makes you feel sick, you don't know what day you are on, you can't function and the hallucinations and psycho dreams you have are nothing but fucking weird. Who has ever had a d…